First Reveal

Cancer is hard.  Really hard.  It literally changes every aspect and corner of your life.  With breast cancer it changes your physical appearance and for me, it drastically did, and at warp speed.   There was no option except to remove my entire breast because of the sheer size and number of my tumors.  Ironically the cysts I had removed 20 years ago in my right breast where able to be removed and every doctor that did a breast exam would comment on how "cute" my scar was across my nipple line.  That nipple and it's partner on the left are now gone forever because there is a higher chance of recurrence if you keep your nipples.

All this talk of boobs and nipples is to get you ready for what is below.  SO, listen, I am just going to apologize in advance, but there is some lady out there that just found out she has breast cancer and the only option is to remove her breast.  As with any illness you head to the internet and that is why I decided to post a picture of my NOOBS after surgery. 

If you don't want to look just skip this post.  It took me 2 weeks to finally look down at my chest so don't feel bad!  If you do look that is fine too.  If you are chick just diagnosed and hoping to understand just what in the hell is going to happen, look, a lot, and enlarge the picture.  Here goes....

 
My incisions are not mirror images because of where my largest tumor was located.  That tumor was especially close to my skin so the incision had to take that into consideration.  You might notice that I'm not flat as a board up above.  That's because I chose to do immediately reconstruction which means I left my mastectomy surgery with expanders in that had some saline solution inside them.   I told Scott that this part of my journey will be like him watching me go through puberty as my NOOBS grow with each fill.  There are just way too many exciting things to look forward to!!